Back.. kind of

Well, I'm home. I have been for a couple days, but the day I got home I dropped my iBook and broke my power adapter in the landing. Leave it to Apple to build a sturdy laptop, but I wish they would put some work into their adapters. Anyway, I've ordered a new one and it's on it's way, but since it was cheaper to order a generic adapter online then to go with the Mac one, I have to wait on the postal service. I have many pictures to update and many stories to tell, I just hope I don't forget them all. 

Morning Note

As i was about to leave for work this morning, I noticed this note my mom left for me. 

I opened it up to reveal this:

I almost died laughing. I got a free sample of panty liners in the mail yesterday and as she was talking to her friend yesterday afternoon in the kitchen I was all like, here you go and after her friend left she teased me about handing them out in front of everyone. So this was just great. 

I love my mom. She flippin rocks the casbah. 

Sleep deprived.

I am so tired. So so so tired. I didn't sleep very well last night and today Sarah started having contractions. It turned out to be a false alarm, but exciting and everything that goes with it. And now, I'm tired. I'm not even the one having the baby and it's already worn me out!

Some things worth noting

My mom made the best dinner tonight, meatloaf and corn and baked potatoes and gravy. It was de-lish. But, anyway, as I was floating around the 'net today I found a couple things that I wanted to share. 

I go on vacation next Sunday to the lake house with the family, it's a good thing I don't get internet up there. I do bring my iBook though to charge my Shuffle.. I hope that doesn't count. You can read that full story here. 

I feel much better about having the same password for everything. You can find that story here.

Back!

I am back! Okay, not that I was ever gone, but my modem totally died. Well, I guess the modem didn't die, it was just something with the connection outside because of the stores we've had? Either way, I am back! I have the modem in my room and I totally had to clean my room today because Comcast was coming. I don't have any before pictures, but I have some afters that I will post tomorrow. Anyway, today was a crazy busy day for me and I need to sleep. I have to get up early for church and then a baby shower. Yay! haha. 

Ginger Tea

What are your thoughts on Ginger tea?

Oh Ginger Tea, drink not of the gods. 

You are spicy and yellow and full of fight

Oh Ginger Tea, I drink you with a nod

You are so sweet with some honey but still so full of bite,

If I didn't feel so sick, you would not be going in this bod. 

Oh Ginger Tea, drink not of the gods. 

haha. That's by Ginger Tea poem. What do you think? I've been drinking in with some honey and it seems to help my nausea, but man, it is not good. I mean, it is, but I feel like I'm drinking liquid wasabi or something. 

Update

I've survived on teaspoons of honey, pieces of sugared ginger and chicken noodle soup. The honey helps the throat, the ginger lets me eat the chicken noodle soup which also helps the throat and stops my stomach from growling. Oh, and naps. There are not enough naps in the world! The down side.. my fever is up 100.4 without Tylenol. With Tylenol 99.6 Very sad. 

West Nile Virus

I have it. No, seriously. Hear me out before you start with the oh my goodness you are crazy girl. 

First, for the past week I had the poops which ended a couple days ago, but I couldn't attribute it to anything that I ate. I know my body disturbingly well, like I always know what I eat that causes that stuff and it was attributed to anything. I ate all normal stuff. And it wasn't like my normal poops either, I'll leave it at that. That ended a couple days ago, thankfully. 

But, a couple days ago I started with a sore throat and nausea. Like, wicked nausea. Everything I try to eat anything I feel disgustingly sick and want to puke it up, but I don't. I relate it to that feeling when you're really really really really hungry and you feel pukey sick, but you know you just need to eat. It's that feeling, except it keeps me from eating. I get through a couple bites and I just have to stop. I can't even work through it. Unless I eat cake.. maybe there is an upside after all? But my throat keeps getting more and more sore and tender and now feels like the whole left jugular side is a giant bruise. 

Also starting a couple days ago was a fever. A low grade fever, the highest it's gotten so far is 99.4, but I never run fevers. Well, hardly hardly ever. Unless I have the flu and then it's like 103. Normally I average in the 97.6 range. 

And, I'm tired. I worked 4:30-12:30 yesterday, came home and took a 3 hour nap. Then I was still really tired and went back to sleep at 9 and slept until 9 this morning when Mum came to check on me. I did wake up throughout this time frame for activities like being and eating honey. But seriously, a three hour nap followed by 12 hours of sleep? Something is wrong. 

And to top it all off, about a week and half ago, I got 11 mosquito bites in one night. The covered my body including my cheek. 

So that's my story, now here's the symptoms of WNV:
Mild infection signs and symptoms
About 20 percent of people develop a mild infection called West Nile fever. Common signs and symptoms of West Nile fever include:

• Skin rash
  
• Headache
  
• Fever
  
• Diarrhea
  
• Nausea
  
• Vomiting
  
• Backache
  
• Muscle aches
  
• Lack of appetite
  
• Swollen lymph glands
  

Those look like pretty good odds to me. The good thing is that although I feel as though I want to die, I won't. The bad thing is that there is nothing the Dr. can do, my body just has to fight it by itself. 

This is very sad. :( 

I don't feel good.

I think that I am getting sick. Not so good. My throat is killing me and I have a little temp. I'm going to sleep some. I already took tylenol. :( Very sad. I hate being sick!

I'm only half-retarded

As I'm leaving work this evening, I'm digging in my purse for my keys. And it's raining. And I'm digging, and digging and digging and it's raining. And I start to freak. Where are my keys, where are my keys. Did I leave them in the office? Did I even take them out to leave them there? Maybe I never put them in my purse and just set them on the desk. Wouldn't I have seen them and put them away? Well, it's raining, let me get in the car and empty my purse, they have to been in there. (I hardly lock the car door.. I probably should start after posting this, just. in. case.)

I get in and there are my keys, sitting quietly and peacefully on the passenger seat. Did I mention I don't lock my car door?

Yeah. My point exactly.

Free Samples

I love them. I sign up for free samples of everything in the whole wide world. Stuff that I'm never going to use or even thought about using, but because I can get a little mini version for free, I sign up! It's like getting mini presents in the mail almost every single day! So incase you too would love to have it be your birthday everyday you should check out this site

Free Grabber

That's the best one I've found so far. But, if you know of any other terrific ones, please share! Then it could not only be my birthday, but Christmas everyday as well!

But, almost doesn't count.

As I was driving to work this morning, I was listening to Taylor Swift. I downloaded her self-titled album the other day because I really love a couple of songs and she really has a beautiful voice when you listen to it, but after really listening to these lyrics, I just wanted to cry.

"Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart,now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?"

I just don't understand this whole thing with Golfpro and how I can love someone this much and it means nothing. I know that sometimes love is not enough, but when is it finally going to be enough? 

I prayed the rest of the way to work. I have to put it in someone else's hands because I can't handle it myself and I know that He will take care of it as He's suppose to. It will all work out the way it should. I honestly believe that He has a wonderful plan for me and I just need to have faith. Some times when it's the hardest to keep the faith is when you need to have faith the most.

I didn't cry though. And not that I think there is anything wrong with crying, but I just don't want to. If by all means you want to cry, please do. I know that I will soon. I've put off dealing with this long enough and I know it's building and will be coming to head, regardless of how much I do pray. My heart does hurt, it is broken and I miss him so much, everyday. It's like this.. or it was, I guess... 

"And I don't try to hide my tears.
The secrets or my deepest fears.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
And you know everything about me.
You say you can't live without me.

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.
Only you can tell.

That I'm only up when you're not down.
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.
It's like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you"

And I feel so lost and so not myself without him. I always have, but this time it's so much worse because I felt things this time around that I hadn't before. I really truly believed that I figured it out this time.. but I guess he didn't. I'm hanging in there though and I know part of this is PMS and I'll be fine by the end of the week. But, damn!

I didn't sleep well last night either. I just keep coughing all night long, every night. And last night was no different, it just didn't quit, no matter how many times I used my inhaler. So, tonight I took a lot of my narcotic prescription cough syrup. I have quite a bit left over from my respiratory infection back in March. This is heavy duty stuff, like wicked heavy. And I didn't measure it out. Oh, no. I took a swig. A swig! And I can definitely feel myself getting dizzy and seeing double. It feels so great, it feels like wonderful sleep. I'm going to sleep well tonight and even if I cough all night, I'll never know it and that's just fine by me! What's even better is that I'm off tomorrow too! I can enjoy it even more! YES!

John Mayer

He is seriously love. And, I totally love the fact that he shaves his arms. I bet you never noticed that, but I bet you will now. Smoooth. Always. That just makes him a thousand times sexier to me. As if it was even possible. /drool.

Oh, this is not good!

The downfall of the CAPTCHA

What are we going to do now?

What does that make?

So, if a few is three. And, quite is four. Does quite a few equal a dozen?

This is just some of the random things I think about while laying at the bottom of the shower.